Journal Entry: Mon Mar 10, 2014, 3:41 PM
Uuuugggh this month man... This month.
So since last time I posted a life uptade my life has more of less given up on itself. I have so many things in my life that I'm stressing about, and at the top of the list is drivers license, school application and my future in general. Most people in here are probably familiar with the fact that people applying for an illustration school has to draw several illustrations IN ADDITION to the applycation itself. I.Don't.Have.The.Time.To.Do.This.Man. I legit have been working on school shit and drawing almost each day the last week untill 3-4AM which gives me 2-3 hours before school. I'm sure that in the last week I've gotten 18 hours of sleep altogether. Like, I can feel my body slowly shutting down....
The problem is though... Am I making the right decision. Not only is this school HELLA exspensive, but it's illustration, probably the least wanted job ever. The least payed job aswell. How the hell am I going to make a living out of a degree in illustration. Am I setting up a future where I waste 30 000$++ and end up in the streets. I'm talking canned soup erry'day. I'm just really torn atm. Though at the same time I don't WANT people to tell me I'm doing something crazy stupid cause now it's too late! There's nothing else I really want to do and hell no I ain't working some damn office job, nah that's just not me y'know.
Ugh sorry about the rant I'm just... Everywhere with my thoughts and this future shit is driving me insane to the point I can't sleep and end up laying in bed just tearing up about my future choices. At least I can watch Ru'Pauls Drag Race to cheer me up.</sub>